This is just a random post..
the intensity of feelings are not reflected aptly by the limited vocabulary and expressions.
YOU ARE THE HOPE (by Sari S.)
bukan dengan kekuatanku (not by my own strength)
kudapat jalani hidupku (can i walk this life of mine)
tanpa tuhan yang disampingku (without god who's by my side)
ku tak mampu sendiri (i am not able to stand on my own)
engkaulah kuatku (you are my strength)
yang menopangku (who's holding me up)
ku pandang wajahmu dan berseru (i gaze at your face and shout)
pertolonganku datang darimu (my help comes from you)
peganglah tanganku, jangan lepaskan
(hold my hands, please don't ever let go)
kaulah harapan dalam hidupku (you are, the hope in my life)
this song speaks very clearly of the past few days in my life -
weak, unable to breakthrough on my own; frustrated, helpless..
limited, inadequate
God gave this song - He has never failed to provide something for me to hold on to each time i am down..
"without god by my side; i am not able to stand on my own. "
If it is not enough,
Pastor gave a word today - the verse that tells my name
Joel 3:9-10
Proclaim this among the nations:
“ Prepare for war!
Wake up the mighty men, ...
Let the weak say, ‘I am strong.’”
On my own, i am weak,
but with God, and only with God, i can boldly proclaim that i am strong..
my help comes from you and you alone...
hold my hands, don't ever let go
for you are the hope in my life
Saturday, 28 June 2008
the hope of my life
Posted by ah li at 1:30 am 1 comments
Friday, 9 May 2008
unpredictable
Somebody I know for about 7 years passed away two days ago.

Posted by ah li at 1:40 am 1 comments
Sunday, 3 February 2008
immediate reply
Oh yes..
I received a reply to the previous post within one hour.
In the reply there was the boat in the middle of an ocean,
a lone boat.
Then the storm approached and the boat was tossed to and fro.
It was all gloomy... and scary
until he spoke peace.
and the sky cleared immediately.
and peace there was.
It amazes me
to know how much i am loved
despite my faithlessness.
与君作战.
that's when the weak becomes strong once again.
With Christ in the vessel i can smile at the storm,
as i go sailing home.
Feel free to board the boat and join in the sail
=)
Posted by ah li at 10:00 pm 1 comments
乱想
近来好象有点忙碌.
有很多思绪, 经验, 感想, 等等...
没有机会好好的记录下来.
也没有把它们扩大, 或更深入地用它们来激发自己.
少了机会与朋友分享.
说是结交了新朋友; 但感觉上还没机会打好基础, 让自己更适应对方, 就得各自忙碌.
有点可惜.
很想更深入地靠近去, 却有个疑问...
需要多少空间?
anyway...
好象比较"寂寞"了一点.
不是emo类的寂寞.
可能是比较难用文字让别人理解自己现阶段的状况.
有那种孤军作战的感觉.
这对我来说还ok...
毕竟向来都如此.
可是, 除了一睡, 该有更好的战术/战友吧..
轮到你了.
Posted by ah li at 7:00 pm 0 comments
Friday, 18 January 2008
Blackout
Blackout today.
Kinda scary.. especially since I have not really started exerting myself this year.
I figure it is the long day + lack of sleep yesterday.
Woke up at 6.30 am to jog - when I was through, I thought my brain would explode because of the lack of oxygen.
Had night class, and thereafter attended a funeral wake.
By the time I reached home, it was almost 1 am. Argggh..
Yea.. So the blackout.
Felt numb in the body and stuffy in the chest.
A tightness of the brain.
A splitting headache.
Thank God i found a seat in time to rest the body.
I think I could finally empathize with Sun Wu Kong.Maybe it is the hat that I wore for that split second this afternoon.
Did someone put the "jin gu" in the hat!!!???
Waaaaa...
Stop chanting! =p
Posted by ah li at 6:46 am 1 comments